These 2 attributes are very important to any individual out there and yet I am lacking pretty badly in these areas. Being in university now clearly shows how bad things can be for me when I have little discipline and poor time management. Ok lah, it aint exactly that bad, but the feeling that I have now is very, very sian. Of course, I’m not saying that with discipline and better time management I’ll be coping uni life like a breeze, but at least I’m pretty sure that my mood should be more stable and shouldn’t find the current life (or routine) so sian.
Before tutorials began in week 3, I was kinda handling my tutorial workload very well, and even ahead in the case for MA1505. But now, I’m just barely preparing/attempting the tutorial in time for lessons and I’m seeing more and more questions that are left blank or half done due to my lack of ability. I do pay attention in class and I believe my ability to understand concepts isn’t that bad but I appear to be going downhill in terms of performance against the cohort in general (or at least that’s the feeling I get). This is kinda bad since most of the modules will be graded with a bell curve model in place, so I will lose out in the end. But of course, the one at fault would be none other than myself. Firstly, I do not bother to buy/borrow any recommended (or strongly encouraged to own) textbooks to read (yes that includes the online textbook for Scheme) nor do I re-read my lecture notes (or re-watch webcasts) to digest more information/concepts before diving into doing the tutorial questions. Next, I do not go for any consultation hours (or office hours) to see the TAs or tutors regarding any outstanding conceptual issues or tutorial problems not because the times all clash with my timetable (some hours do, but there’s alternatives) but because I’ve not gone through (lazy mah…) what exactly are the things that I’m unclear/confused about. I can’t possibly go there and starting figuring out where I’m “lost”, can I?
Besides being lazy, I often do not plan my time very well, resulting in many things left unaccomplished even though I had intended to complete them by a certain time. This causes a backlog to grow, and grow, until it’s sometimes quite sad to this all this mess piled up waiting to be cleared. What usually comes next is a mad chase just to clear enough to get by. During this phase, I usually find myself doing for the sake of doing, and clearing for the sake of clearing rather than understand the true purpose of accomplishing a certain task.
On the other hand, for things that do not have any sort of deadline/target/responsibilities, I seem to be able to spend longer time (and effort maybe) at them. I’ve noticed this “trait” about myself during army days where I was kinda helpful to other departments within my branch when they were shorthanded and yet wasn’t very enthu in clearing my own department’s work ahead of time (yah i still finish by deadline one. army cannot play play too much. =D). What’s wrong with me? Sighs.
I ought to be going off to do my tutorials now. Need to be less lazy and more “hardworking”. See ya.
p.s. my daily visit has hit a new all-time high of 104 for 14th Sept ‘07. thank you for all the support so far. please feel free to comment if there’s a need to. don’t be shy =D
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